Aesthetic Rhythm and the Prickly Pear Series:
artwork despite tremors/Painting #2
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| Those who sew in tears will reap songs of joy. Psalm 126:5 |
I NEED EVERYONE TO KNOW
It is in my heart to let everyone know a couple things about the recent artwork that I have been creating:
1. I only create something when led by the Holy Spirit. When I try to do a piece without the Holy Spirit-bottom line-it just isn't good and it is forced. That has become clear to me.
2. It hurts to create. My hands tremble, my wrist and finger pain is severe right now. I am fatigued. It takes a lot.
3. Yet it is easy. My hand flows and creates without much thought and even though it hurts it is soothing in a unique and bizarrical way.
4. It soothes my soul to create these new pieces, it brings me indescribable, unspeakable joy.
WHAT YOU ALL ARE DOING FOR ME
Many are letting me know in one way or another (comments, personal messages, etc.) how they are being blessed by my work. This means a lot to me.
TWO THINGS FOR ME TO SHOUT ON THE MOUNTAIN TOPS
1. It is through me that the Holy Spirit is working to touch you or plant a seed in some way. I am immeasurably blessed that through my obedience that God is using me.
2.What you may not realize is that YOU ALL are blessing ME by being touched in some way and/or by liking my artwork!
THIS MIGHT BE ANOTHER POST
I have desperately searched for (let's say since I was 2 years old)...46 years as to what medium and what avenue and focus and what in the world my insatiable desire to create could/should be used for. That has been my ongoing artist infliction and torment. I have used it to earn money to little satisfaction or success for that matter! I have used it to home school my kids; certain degree of satisfaction-but never the answer I was looking for. Yes, in my 30's I learned that God gave me a gift that I could actually use for ministry, revolutionary! Then I created murals for church, for the base in Mozambique and used it for many other ministry purposes. Felt good, felt rewarding: However,
I took the credit for myself instead of giving it to my Lord and Savior so it was still very incomplete. Finally, without my doing, without my planning, without my strategizing or intention-it just happened. The art is flowing and the unexpected ministry is flowering like wildfire. All to God's Glory!
“Now it shall come to pass, if you diligently obey the voice of the Lord your God, to observe carefully all His commandments which I command you today, that the Lord your God will set you high above all nations of the earth. 2 And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, because you obey the voice of the Lord your God...Deuteronomy 28:1-14 NKJV A LITTLE BACKGROUND
I stopped painting for the most part. Mostly because it's hard to paint while flat on my back in bed! But it was more that that. When struggling physically and emotionally as an artist it has always been hard for me to draw because drawing is ALMOST like a reward and gift to myself. I enjoy it so much that it feels selfish. Almost like I was punishing myself. To top that off, when finally out of bed, I rush to do things that I'm days and weeks behind on, before I end up back in bed. Therefore a lot of time denying myself of needed rest or pleasure. Here comes the incredible short version of the gift. I started speaking with a young teen that I have a heart for. I found myself encouraging him to draw daily. We are a lot alike, I could feel it in my heart that his creative outlet and gifting was a lot like mine. But in my excitement in encouraging him...he lit a fire in me and also an accountability in me that I wasn't tending to myself.
AS A RESULT
I started doing myself what I was proposing he do. DRAW. Doesn't have to be good no one has to see it, just draw. We artiste's have a burning desire to just create. I know why VanGogh cut off his ear. Someone hid his pencil. I got myself the same supplies I got him, big and small notebooks. Crayons and markers to have handy at a moments notice.
GOD TOOK IT AND RAN WITH IT
So through that I was blessed too. God works in really cool ways. I put the notebooks in places where I end up. One ready with all needed supplies in a tray next to my bed. One on a table ready to go on my chair on the porch. One by my computer. In the car. I couldn't go on the beach when we took our family on our annual beach trip-so I set up a resting space on the deck to be readily available at all times. The kids run tirelessly back and forth at a moments notice to clean my water or help me in some way. They are so supportive of me.
SO YEAH
God has done work in me through all this as well. He has plans for all of us because He loves us so much. Such a happy unexpected blessing.
For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD Psalm 117:2 NKJV
THANK YOU
Thank you for your comments, for letting me know how much you like my creative pieces. And for blessing me.
MY PRAYER FOR YOU
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:16-19 NKJV
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