And for the third time I rolled over and fell into a beautifully rare state of exhausted bliss.
Fourth time, I jumped up but only due to total obedience and total love.
I have a testimony I must share.
Yesterday I was healed!
Of ALL my health issues? Nope. Of exactly what you ask? I'm asking too. I'm not quite sure. Let me simply talk about the past 12 days rather than my entire discombobulated health history.
I have simply gone from debilitating pain, weakness, tremors, the inability to keep food inside of my body and a lot more explicit detail that I am most positive that your ears nor visual emphatic system would prefer to not take in, during the past 14 days to "ALL GONE" in the past DAY.
I eagerly praise my perfect Father as I am positive that it was His doing.
Let's travel back in time let's say, well, I am 52 years old, how about into my childhood. YEP, that's where hurt started happening and bitterness started settling in.
I listened to a fantastic sermon last week by Bill Johnson from Bethel Church in Redding, CA. He was speaking about forgiveness. About how Jesus died for our sins and how we must forgive others as He forgave us! UUGGGHHH. I'm not sure about you, but I have learned for myself that true forgiveness, especially for the most evil and disgusting acts are not even doable without the power and strength of the Lord! OR am I the only one?
I have tried so very often my very darndest to present true forgiveness on my very own doing in my very own way!
It simply did not work so well.
It was when I fell deeply in love with my perfect Father in heaven that peace came with it!
When I fell for Jesus I soon after began to have a few tools tucked under my belt that THEN made some stuff EASIER and more manageable. For instance, the more I got to know the Lord, the more I loved Him and same goes even now and the more I trust and have faith in Him and know and understand His promises to me. Now the easier I am truly able to forgive! Like for instance, I know that He has my back when someone hurts me or does me wrong! SO much better! I do not have to "Get them back," OR "Defend my character!" I can walk away or respond in love knowing that God will handle my battles for me! (No matter how hard that is!) AND boy, like a wild, crazy soap opera actress, there are some things that I have wanted to yell out, or sing truth out loud about to the crowd, but I know that my Father with bring justice in the end! Because He knows me and He loves me so. And THAT is all that matters!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13 NKJV
My thankful prayers became almost addictive. My beautiful husband walked up the the walkway as he does everyday after work and all I could do is fall on my knees and Thank God for him!
Two of my kids left to go out of town and I praised God that they could use their legs to walk to the car (After all my daughters' hip surgeries.)
I glance out the window and weep and praise Him for the greenery and for the gentle breezes. My dogs huge eyeballs look at me and I praise God for their large beautiful eyeballs that tell me stories of how they love me and will do anything for me and they also see deep into my soul! I then wash three small dishes and tear up once again thanking Him for the strength to hand dry them! And the praises continue.........
It is crazy, amazing, striking, mind-blowing, intoxicating and enthralling how many blessings just I alone have had in this lifetime!
And that brings me to TODAY.
I woke up feeling somewhat energized! Very different in itself. I then walked to the bathroom. Different. Not having to check each muscle and bone first. I was not nauseous or sick! YES! A dull headache, YES! GOOD! JOY in ME! YES and YES! This day is getting better and I have yet to get to the bathroom!
Fast forward to nap time after having a wonderful morning date with my husband! And P.S. I ate something small for breakfast and did NOT end up for an hour in the next stores' bathroom! The day was fantastical!
Faster Forwarder to Nap time. I WAS COMFORTABLE. WOW. And WOW. BE STILL. It was truly then that I understood and realized that I was feeling a LOT better. WEIRD. I can truly say that I have NOT felt comfortable or comfy in YEARS. In fact, I can not remember the last time I felt comfortable. A rare and weird feeling. SO NICE.
Two am the Lord woke me up. Boy Oh boy was I COMFY!! He said, "GET UP!" I knew what I was to do. Go tell everyone my story. Instead of focusing on my hurt and bitterness, I focused and put my energy on the many blessings that the Lord has provided me.
I put my focus on HIM where it belongs!
I put my focus on Him. Where it belongs.
Today, I am healed. Praise HIM!
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